There's No Surprise :)

there's no surprise. . . . .

Hey people! It's been a while since I've blogged, was pretty much busy with college, topic tests, and stuff. Well, here I am again, blogging to kill time. It's pretty hard to catch some sleep nowadays, I keep wondering why. When others sleep, I don't, and when they don't, I do. LOL. When I'm awake at this awkward hours of the night, sometimes my little chunk of tissues and membranes, just keep flashing my life,my past life. Looking back is not what I ever intend to do. I never did, I never will. But I can't stop myself from thinking, on that one particular night, 03042010. Well, lets just not talk about it. It's really devastating, and you ( you know who you are, and I don't wish to mention names over here ) just lost everything, even that little sympathy I had for you, even after whatever you said to me, I kept telling myself, I shouldn't have been rude towards you. You'll never understand me, you never tried to anyways. Be angry at me, it's all your wish. I'm never going to bug you on this matter NO MORE. But it's really painful when such words I hear over and over again from your mouth, with your unpleasant speech! Anyways, all I can say is, I'm not having grudge against you and hopefully you don't as well. And I didn't blog to prove anything about myself if thats what you think of each and every post of mine, YES! YOU ARE WRONG! I don't care about whatever people say about me, I'm just living my life. And I don't need people to lead my life. I don't need people to me giving their opinions on what I should do and what not. I don't even let my parents decide my future, what else some ordinary outsider! Until today, this very minute, I do apologize for I choose to live my life my way, whats the point when there's no future. Well, if you're still mad at me, I don't blame you. At least I didn't drag it until its too late. And to my so-called-bestfriend. Thanks alot for backstabbing me again, no wonder I see wonders in your life now. Sorry, but you made me this way, People around me made me this way, I never choose to be this way, I really didn't. If you ever open my blog page, and seeing this, I am truthfully sorry for what I did, I know it's the worst anyone can do but I just want a life for myself, at least I didn't drag it till it's too late. Sorry for everything once again, and I'm not proving anything to anyone! I made myself clear this time. May god bless you.

xxxx