Wednesday, March 17, 2010

What Happens When He Is Your Prince Charming,But You're Not His Cinderella?

What Happens When He's Your Prince Charming,
But

You're Not His Cinderella?

We always ignore those who adore us, but adore those who ignore us. Knowing the fact that they can never be ours yet we don't stop going after them. Just to learn later on, you've given so much of love to that person and getting nothing in return will just tear you apart. It's the worst feeling ever. And when you have got your heartbroken, you'll still not hate them. It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces left. You'll treasure the moments you had, and say, "He taught me how to love but not how to stop." You'll start thinking to yourself, the times we were happy together are worth the time I cry alone. Loving you is the sweetest mistake I've done, you'll keep reminding your little heart to continue beating. And when you look at your partner smiling, and knowing he/she isn't smiling because of you, that's the time you'll miss them the most!
Nothing hurts more than realizing that he meant everything to you but you never meant anything to him :)
And you'll say, "A million words would never bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried. Loving you was the sweetest mistake I've made,yes I admit.
But you don't dare remember me when she finally forgets you! It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but it's harder to pretend that you don't love that someone, when you know you really do"

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

The Life I'm Living

The Life I'm Living
sometimes I'm grateful because I have him in my life,
sometimes I'm wanting to die because of the way my parents treat me,anything I do is never right,
sometimes I even doubt that I'm their daughter, hmmm.


To the love of my life, you know who you are, I'm sorry I screwed up many times but you do know how much I love you, I can't love anybody else this much, I swear I never did. You made me love you this much, don't ever leave me stranded half way, remember what promise you made to me, no matter what happens, you'll never let go off my hands. Please don't ever hurt me like how the others did, I am trying to be a better person each and everyday. I love you the way you are, you don't have to be like anybody else or even compare yourself with anyone else, to me, you're perfect enough. If you're seeing this, baby, I love you, and I can't wait till the day I finally get to live with you <3

To my mum and dad, I'm really sorry that I'm never a good daughter, yes I know, I'm rebellious and all, but I still love you mum and dad. I still want to make you proud of me, like how I always did and always will. Just one that I never listened that I am loving someone, Mum. I truly do love him, I'm sorry I can't help it. But that doesn't mean I'm neglecting you right? I always will spend my time with you, always will. I'm not that mean after all, I didn't mean to raise my voice mum,I just was tired, and you questioned me in such a way that I really got annoyed. See, I'm useless enough, always making you sad and always hurting you. When I see your tears, it kills me inside mum, it hurts me, really badly. I'm your daughter of course I feel it, I love you very much mum,I swear I do. Please please forgive me for what I did today. I'll prove myself, that I'll be a better person mum :)

To my best friend, Yinnba, you're the best ever partner in crime I ever had :) hahahaha. It's fun being with you, and I swear you're a nice person babe! Just too nice that everyone wants to backstab you. I'm surely going to miss you after AUSMAT course is over, and will wanna see you in Aussie soon enough kay? hehehe. And that Sunday, when you tried harming yourself, I thought I would lose you, I was so scared till I even thought of doing the same, goshhh. You really made me worried. Thank god you're safe now, don't you ever do it again! And Shafira, please stop emoing all the time, Yinba and I are always here for you alright? You'll get your life sorted out soon enough don't worry.All you need is time thats all. I'll miss you Shaf, once you leave to Canada next year :(
Nice friends I've got, will treasure you guys for life, I swear!