Another Tear Drop

Another Tear Drop on my cheeks


I don't know where to begin, I don't know how else to apologize. I just am so messed up and I don't know how else to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry I brought you into this mess. I shouldn't have if I knew things will go this way around. It's not fair for me to even hold on to you any longer, I feel like I'm cheating on you, I'm cheating to myself and I'm cheating everyone else. I don't wish to cheat you in any other way. Enough is enough. I really don't see a future in us, that's the reason why I asked us to go onto separate ways, I don't want you to suffer any longer, I don't even have time for you any longer, I don't even spend time with you. It's getting lesser each day till the day I ended everything. I told you, leave me alone, I just want to be alone, I wanted you to hate me so much so that you'll be able to forget me easily, it would be easier for you to forget about everything. You deserve to be happy Jif, go out there search for your happiness, I'm pretty sure, there would be someone out there who would keep you happy forever, be there for you whenever you need her, love you the way you want her to love you, and will always stand by your side. It's like I'm a bad person, no point you wanting a bad person like me, I never kept you happy right? That's what they all say, but again nobody understands what I'm feeling inside. I don't know whether where I'll be when you finally will forgive me for all my mistakes. Just that please understand one thing, all I do is for your own good, you will thank me someday, when you finally find your happiness. I truly believe you would find someday, I pray each day that you would be fine. I don't want you to get wasted, and please quit smoking. I know I hurt you alot, but you see, you won't regret my decision at all. Thank you for everything. I hope you will be successful one day, I have faith in you. Take care :)

One's First Love is Always Perfect, Until One Meets One's Second Love
and when one meets one's second love, the first love just remains as a fact,
left untouched, left unrevealed, left to be not mentioned ever again.


People say, first love, especially for girls, it's really hard to forget, I do agree. A girl tries her very best to erase each of her mistake just to make sure her love stays, her love remains and her love will last till eternity. So when a girl says she loves you, she really does mean it,never doubt it. And when the girl starts hating you, she might hate you for life.
But, when the same girl tends to feel the same love or maybe more love from another person, will she still think about her first ever love?
I wish I knew the answers to that question.

They said, love is the cure to a heart full of hatred, but when the hatred is caused by love, how is love suppose to cure that?
They said, the foundation of love is trust, but from the very beginning the partner loses trust in his/her partner, how is that called love?
They also said, the base for love is friendship, but are all friends tend to be potential lovers?
Where is love, when one is begging for love?
Where is love, when on is dying to be loved?
Where is love, when one bleeds for love?
And where is love, when it is suppose to cure a broken heart and mend the broken pieces of the heart?

So, love isn't about all this fancy words and sweet talks.
Love just happens when it is suppose to happen.
You can force love to stay in your command, You can't force someone to stay with your demand!
It's true what they said, You give wings to your love, It will feel freedom, fly everywhere and at the end of the day, it still returns to you.
But, If you hold on to it, never gave it space, it will suffocate and tend to die little by little,
Each second, each hour, each day
For all you know, you just lost the love of your life.
It is sad isn't it, but that's the truth people.

You'll never know the value of love, the value of someone who cares about you,
Until you actually lose the person,
And only then you'll act foolishly, wanting the person back,
But do you think, in the person's thought, you'll still remain as the same person you were before this?
The answer is NO, you'll never stay the same in her eyes. Never.
Face the fact people, try to realize and change yourselves.

Love is everything it's cracked up to be, it is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.

And there is no remedy for love, but to love more!