all that's left to do is wish and pray,

all i do is sit far away,

watch you have a better life,

a better person by your side in life,

no reason for you to cry no more,

i'll be able to see you smiling once more,

that would be enough for me,

not like how it used to be,

when you were with me.

the forgotten.

So what if you say I'm a bitch?

You call me a bitch as if it's something bad. Lol. There is something known as Bitchology. And if you take the initiative to actually read it, it only basically means that :

Being a bitch means that,

I stand up to protect myself, my thought, my opinions, my beliefs.

I stand up for those I love, I stand up for my rights and what I really do deserve.

I speak out my mind, think my own thoughts,

or probably just do things just the way I like it to be.

I won't compromise with what's in my heart.

I just live my life my very own way.

I won't let anyone to step on me.

I refuse to tolerate injustice.

It means I have courage and strength to allow myself to be me.

So try to stomp me, douse my inner flame, squash every ounce of beauty I hold within,

trust me, you won't succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch, so be it.

I embrace the title and I'm proud to bear it.

So yes, I'm a bitch,got a problem suck your own dick :)

...

As they once said..

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

Love is a noble act of self-giving, offering trust, faith, and loyalty. The more you love, the more you lose a part of yourself, yet you don't become less of who you are; you end up being complete with your loved ones.

The most precious love occurs without choice, and when you least expect it.

And when it all falls apart..

If I should die tonight and the reason remains unknown, tell not the whole world, but the one I love that I died of a broken heart, not because he loved me too little but because I loved him too much.

Time will prove my love to you and cement my place in your heart forever. For time will give me the credibility and the believability that I need to convince you to want to spend the rest of your life with me. That I am worthy of such a commitment from you.I always knew that looking back to the cries would make me laugh; but I never knew that looking back to the laughs would make me cry.

If your are meant to be together forever, you will survive any obstacle or trouble that comes to you.

If loving you would mean heartbreak and endless quarrels, it would be worth it.

awesomeeeee

24.06.2010

Today everything went on well,

I've got things right this time,

I finally got my license that's what I meant.

Oh well.

I'm pretty much bored at home.

Nothing much to do.

Break oh break, when is it even gonna be over!

GAHHHHHHHH!!!!

I miss the nonsense in college.

And now I know something for sure.

NOT SKIPPING anymore classes!

Hahaha.

Shit I'm dead bored until my brains are not even functioning well.

I blog later on.

signing off for now.

xxx

Hmmm.

Hmmmm. I wonder why!

At first you made it seem like you don't care about me and you don't love me.

And you return saying you love me and can't think of anyone else in my place.

But when I started to think maybe it is true what you said and I know it is too late.

I thought I was mean I was evil enough to do that to you.

BUT!

Now you've proven something to me.

You never changed. Not a little bit.

Your cryings were all fake!

You just couldn't accept the fact you don't own me anymore thats all.

Its not like you ever loved me.

Its so clear now. VERY clear indeed.

Thanks for hurting me once again.

And thanks for letting me feel I was dumb enough to actually believe you.

Thank you.

And may god bless you.

<3

ex's

i thought i was the one.......

And sometimes you wish you could change everything in your past,

but if you ever do that,

how will you even learn from your mistakes?

Yes I know for a fact, sometimes, a person's past will keep haunting you and never will leave your back no matter how hard you try.

Your mind has no tendency to ignore those "memories" which maybe disturbing for you.

But which human is perfect?

Everyone of us have dark pasts.

Almost everything is link to relationships.

Life is just unfair.

Those who deserve you never gets the whole you :)

And yes, those who don't deserve you, normally gets their hands on you when you're just a first timer.

Just so depressing :)

Random Part 2

I need to get a life!!!

[this week has been an awful,hectic week!

too many things to do, and too little time.]

Anyways back to my bloggie. Greetings people!

I'm kinda emoing today. Firstly, my fucked up chemistry test.

studied like mad, and all i got is "your time is up! put your pens down!"

like what the fuck ?!!!

Who even gives tests for 50 minutes with so many damn thinking type questions?

Argghhhhhhhh!

No point crying over that! Just pissing me off. But I just cant seem to get over it.

I just wanna go home! :(

I miss my Mom,suddenly.

I wanna scream out! I wanna cry out!

But it just fails to happen =.='

I don't know whats wrong with me lately.

Too much of mood swings, getting tensed up easily, always moody etc. etc. etc.

It's like I have been PMS-ing the whole damn week.

Not enough of that, stupid Mathematics Test tomorrow.

And I just joined the class yesterday, like seriously, am I Albert Einstein's daughter or what? !!!!!

You see, I've been such a messed up person. Screwing every single thing in life.

The last ever thing I would wanna do is spoiling my future :(

I don't really know what's going to be ahead of me!

Not talking about that for now.

I like how things are now on the other hand.

People did forgive me for my mistakes.

I appreciate that really much, thankies.

Though as I've been saying in my older posts,

I did hurt many people in life.

Some may even just punish you for somethings you never did.

Thats why I say, LIFE's always a BITCH!

you'd never know when it really does backstabbbbbb you.

I just feel so unsatisfied right now.

Only way to let it out is to write.

hate writing in my diary,coz when i'm at home,

Mom tends to read it!

pathetic much, i know :)

i just want things to work out right.

i want everything to be in place.

i want my whole routine to be organised.

if not, i'm just losing my patience thats all.

got to go now.

will write soon.

good night world...

xxxxxx